Stains

Stains, originally uploaded by titanium-white.

Oh!

i love this one!!

sometimes messing with crap shots is the most fun.

Watch me as i disappear

fader, originally uploaded by titanium-white.

an self portrait born of experiments in back lighting and kamikaze filter layering.

not baaad for a midnight fit of sleeplessness and boredom.

i sometimes find it strange to see snapshots of myself,  in certain stages of my life.
Curious how they can mask the larger underlying currents,  or starkly and startlingly reveal them, depending on - i don't even know what.

here
the washed out, insubstantial haziness is accurate.  I have felt all winter like a dull and lusterless parody of myself, slipping further and further from my own ambitions.  Nothing satisfies.  I am restless, impotent and irritable, and eternally exhausted.  Ghosting.  A dumb spectre.        

the smile vexes.
complacent or complicit
as of yet, i do not know.

swagger

, originally uploaded by titanium-white.

holy shit, holy shit, holy shit....

*fans the air excitedly*

you know when you make a bunch of stuff and you're just sort of  like "blaaaaaaaagh....", and then you make one thing that climbs right to the top of the pile, and you look at it, and it stares you right back and shamelessly wrangles and hogties your stupid sheepish insecurities and sacrifices it on an alter of self confidence and cockiness' lovechild...  and then you take a sip from the cup and you're like.....  "Efff... sometimes i am awesome..."

and then you start to grin like a jerk but you don't even care...because good is just GOOD and sometimes egomania is warranted...even if i DO say so myself...


...
riiight??
you know??

well...

i think this is that one...

xo

A.

maybe

it might be 330 am

i might have sold some art tonight. 

I might have  shot up a burlesque show, after the gallery thing.

I may have stumbled into  a metal show.

it possible that i drank too much

and could not find my way out of the car, when i was (Graciously!,  Mercifully!)  dropped off at home

and maybe,  i might have to work tomorrow...


oh kittens!  lets hope all the puppies and kitties are healthy tomorrow!  

nothing can get hit by cars! 

*crosses fingers*


i am drinky faced. 

that is all.

exhale

exhale, originally uploaded by titanium-white.

my portraits of strangers series is finally, FINALLY underway. Two years after i started it, i finally took my balls out of my purse and started asking people if i could take their picture, instead of gazing at them wistfully and kicking myself for days after each and every missed opportunity.

This one made Explore on flickr today, Which i ALWAYS discredit, except, of course, when i am in it. ;-)


three cheers for progress and productivity.

Huzzah.

colds and needles

Out last night to Richelle and Ed's for dinner and drinks.

Nothing fancy, just a cozy chill night getting caught up with friends and conversation that bubbled until the not-so-wee hours of the morning.

Good for what ails you.

Hair of the dog for breakfast and an afternoon of tidying and laundry.

tonight i sew.

tomorrow brings an early surgery shift and an afternoon root canal.

I am sick of colds and needles.